This whole day I've been trying to concentrate, going about my business and getting ready for a final that I take tomorrow. I've been avoiding the world and trying to stay inside of my little bubble hoping that it would help me focus, but tonight I went onto Facebook. I didn't want to see what was happening out there with my friends while I sat here studying and thinking. I didn't want to be reminded of old friends or current friends that conjure up memories of the past. Don't get me wrong, they're not bad memories, but I'm not the type to reminisce.
When I did decide to take a break and all I saw on Facebook were posts about Robin Williams. Sure, people pass away and I don't find many people's passing to have that much of an impact on my life, but this time is different.
Robin Williams was a staple in my childhood. I remember growing up watching his movies and listening to his comedy. He's tied very closely to one of my best friends and nearly everything that the '90s personally stood for. I looked up to Robin Williams and I always wanted to be as funny as him. He always seemed so happy and kind, so lighthearted and carefree, like he had all the answer to life.
When I got the news yesterday, a notification popped up on my phone. I just read it and everything went silent. When I learned that Robin Williams had taken his own life, the whole world went mute and I just didn't understand why. I started thinking, there must have been something I missed. I must have been naive as a child. I must not have known what he was really like. I don't keep up with celebrities and I don't even know most celebrities' names, but I always felt a connection with Robin Williams. I think everyone felt that connection, and the news was so shocking.
I don't know exactly what happened, in a way I don't think that I need to know. I have realized that there are things that Robin Williams was dealing with that I don't know about or that any of us could know about, but he is human just like the rest of us. I think we tend to blame him too quickly for what happened; I know I tried to. As if renouncing everything I knew about him would make me understand better. But that's not right. That's not fair.
Robin Williams was a great guy. He will always be that guy who made us laugh uncontrollably and a staple to my childhood. He will always bring back great memories and that distinct melodic rasp to his voice will always come to mind. What happened is highly unfortunate and we all need to take a little more time in our lives to examine not only ourselves, but the people that we care about. Take the time to reach out to someone. Don't be afraid. If you see someone hurting, say something to them. Chances are, that little comment will make a huge difference.
I believe that Robin Williams was that person to so many people; he brought so much joy into our lives and I think we all need a little bit of that right now.
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